NO MORE COFFEE! NO MORE COFFEE! Imagine the Mommy Dearest movie when she says, "NO MORE WIRE HANGERS!!!!!! That is what I felt like this morning when I tried going without my coffee. I tried, I tried. I couldn't do it. I almost had it done too. I woke up and made my strong coffee and added soy milk to it. Remember baby steps. I had a couple of sips but wasn't really feeling it. No problema. I made myself a fresh glass of iced de-caf green tea for the road along with a glass of regular black tea for security. I was kind of sleepy during the commute but I made it. I must also mention that this was my first Monday to work since I started on the floor. I think I'm allergic to Mondays. I know I'm really allergic to them when they are a hell-a busy and I have low levels of caffeine in my body. I felt like my brain was mush and that I was the biggest air head in the world. I suffered through work with catching some of my mistakes. Lord only knows how many I didn't catch, but I made it. I should of been rejoicing when I walked out of work but instead all I did was feel deprived. So you want to know what I did? I got in my car and drove to the Starbucks that is located right next to where I work. I went through the drive-thru and ordered and a Venti Non-fat Iced latte. It was sooooo gooooood. Of course I felt bad because I was close but yet so far from being one step closer. Oh well, I told myself maybe tomorrow will be a better day. I then eased my guilt with the thought of that at least I didn't get the extra shot. Maybe I have made a little bit of progress. I'm not giving up. Let's see how far I can get tomorrow.
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